I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all the kinds of things you can’t see from the center.
Kurt Vonnegut 

 

Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.

Ralph Waldo Emerson http://www.flickr.com/photos/ediblexart/      

 Cheetoh, brought him home when he was just 4 weeks, he could fit in the palm of my hand. He's my baby.

 Chula (originally Chulupa) Used to be a nasty biter, now when ever you hold her to your face she'll lick you silly.

 One of the many mice I used to own. (I collected all sorts of different colors, this one was pregnant and super sweet) The ferret ended up eating her...

Ripley (Mah Dog)

Don't Dwell

"We must not say every mistake is a foolish one." - Cicero

 A lesson I'm try desperately to learn.

Coming Up For Air.
I "over-think" too much. I need to learn how to not dwell on the past and to get over all the humiliating things I've ever done I can tell myself 1,000 times "You can't change what's already happened so just move on." but some how I just can't accept it, I still sit and re-think about the same things over and over and over again. I wish I could just start over and make first impressions all over again because I'm rather starting to like who I am now or who I'm  becoming.

Environmentally Conscious

I originally posted this on my other blog but I have now decided that I really want to start a more in depth version of my journey to become a no impact woman.

I’ve been really inspired to reduce my carbon footprint. (We're causing so much harm to the earth, our home, why shouldn't I care?!)  I remember learning about carbon footprints in Environmental Sciences and I did try to do my best then to try to consume less but I admit, I pretty much just went about my days without thinking about the emissions I was producing and the unneeded waste I was creating. Currently, I do try to do the simple easy things like recycling, turning off unneeded lights, washing my clothes in the tub, and drying my clothes in the sun but there is so much more I could be doing. For starters I’m going to do my best to not buy anything that requires oil for production, that means nothing that comes in a plastic wrapping. I’m also going to try to only eat organic locally grown foods which truly I look forward to doing. I already don’t eat meat and I try to stay away from processed/non-organically grown foods as it is but I need to put a lot more focus into being environmentally conscious. 

 

First thing I'm going to focus on is to not buy anything new. No material possession to me is worth polluting our world for but if there is something that I’ll need I’ll be relying on thrift stores. I don't think most people realize the imminence amount of products are are produced with oil.  For you ladies out there this means No Make up. This doesn't bother me so much as in I don't usually wear it unless I feel the urge to play dress up. (because what girl doesn't love to pretend to be a fairy). So this means I'll just use up the last of what I have and I will not be buying anything new. I usually mooched off my mothers supply. (she was once an amazing make-up artist and had a huge collection of movie make up and of course in  I'lany color you'd want.) So that's one way to start, I wish more girls would decide to make the no make up change, why use something that you could do without in the first place?

 

 My real plan is  be as self sufficient as possible, most responses to that have been in some sort of variation of “Stop dreaming.”, “You’re kidding right?” and “Let’s be realistic.” but the more I think about it the more I realize that there isn’t anything else in the world that I’d rather do.  Not only is it beneficial to the environment but  I’m also preparing myself for the future. Let’s face it, we’re running out of oil and once it’s all gone we will have to rely on local farmers which will hopefully cause us to become more community based. (due to the lack of oil, importing foods will be a clearly difficult task.)  Moving somewhere away from the city where I can live off the grid and support myself as well as my family is much better then spending non-renewable energy and producing emissions that eat away at our planet. l'll grow all my own vegetables and Ill have hundreds of different varieties of fruit and nut trees, I'll build myself a beautiful glass and wood greenhouse. I'll have chickens (I used to own some and I'll always remember how happy they made me.), dairy cows (probably only two), goats, sheep & alpaca, ducks, pigs, and of course dogs, cats, and ferrets. I get so excited thinking about it I could jump up and down and scream, though I'll hold my excitement in till I'm out of the apartment complex.




  My parents both try to do their part, recycling wise, but their lifestyles "require" them to buy all sorts of new things and I don't think they think too much about it. I try my best to explain to them the consequences of their actions but they are set in their ways and behave as if I'm making some sort of joke. Hopefully I can figure out a better way to persuade them into being more aware of the destruction that's be caused by our selfishness.


"Although I have a long way to go, I am definitely more aware. "


I hope that in some way I can make other people realize that its not hard to live an eco-friendly life and that the change is easy and more then possible. 

Something That Makes Me Happy

Photography.
There's something stress relieving to it.
For me its fun, maybe because my livelihood doesn't rely on it but still I really enjoy just taking my time and trying to see life from a different perspective.

"We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love."

-Dr. Seuss